I Have Traded My My Purse for a Lunchbox

As I was walking back to my car after a long day of painting, (8 hours to be exact) I started thinking. I mean I have a 15 min hike from the office to my car. (Because I love my car, I walk.) I had a bright green lunchbox in my hand, steel-toed boots on, my hair pulled up into a messy bun and paint ALL over. As I looked at my shadow, I thought to myself, "I would have never guessed that I would be here right now." I have traded my cute curly hairdos for hardhats. I have traded my super cute bright yellow Dolce&Gabbana purse for my not so stylin' green lunchbox. I have traded tanning everyday at the local reservoir for painting. I have traded my Miss Me, Big Star and BKE jeans for paint splattered no labels. No earrings, no jewelry. I really don't recognize myself! I guess change is a good thing, right? I don't have any cell service until 5pm every night. But I guess I am making double what I was at the local grocery store... so I am not going to complain. I really am starting to like painting. I don't even mind the 45 min drive to work everyday because it gives me a chance to think. I am learning to like all of the secretaries. I am pro at painting now. So although
I don't look or feel anything like myself, I guess I am okay with change for a minute.

I am on a roller coaster.....

Life is like a roller coaster. I have been highs, doing all kinds of spins and twirls and loving life. Then suddenly the ride comes to a steep slope and upward climb. Everything I know to be relatively legit in my life is slowly spiraling out of control. I seem moody and depressed if things don't work out exactly like I hoped they would. Honestly, what I want more than anything in the world is to be happy. Another similarity between life and roller coasters is that I am always scared out of my mind to get on the ride but once I am on, it is all worth it. I have so much wasted worry in my life. I shouldn't dread the inevitable or the unknown. Tomorrow, I am venturing into the unknown, a brand new job. In 8 weeks, I will be leaving my home and moving also into the unknown. So I need to buckle up and hold on tight. I know that everything happens for a reason. So i hope that I can turn this downward crash into a thrill and laughter. Starting tomorrow I am officially an adult. No more careless days. New job = full time! So wish me luck!

Frogs (Impostors) that Seem to Be Princes

I recently realized that there is more to life than text messages, shopping and well stupid boys. When you are well almost, in a relationship, then the world has an extra sparkle, everything seems magical. He seems like your Prince Charming. And when its over, you feel like the world is totally different! Like everything changed! It is strange to imagine when you are going through this that the world can even move on! Nothing really changes... just you. I mean people still buy groceries, people still go to work, and contrary to popular belief--the sun does shine. There are still beautiful things. I am independent. I can do things all by myself. Honestly, I only need me to make me happy. So really family is much more important than dumb boys--although sometimes they get the brunt of being ditched and waiting up until insane hours in the morning so you can get off your wonderful date. I think when you are looking for love you will never find it... But if you just live and don't desperately search for Mr. Right, then I think that he will come and find you. I am also so grateful for a family that loves me and listens to me! :)I think I am going to have to date alotta frogs (impostors) before I find my Prince. But I am totally fine with that because I still have my whole life ahead of me!

One morning you wake up and everything changes.....

I finally start to accept the transition from high school into the workplace. I have worked there for almost two years. I meet a guy and start consistently 'hanging out'. (only two official dates) I am on a schedule. I knew what days of the week to expect what. I was in my comfort zone. I was lovin life! I guess that is the key to the whole mess that I am in. When i get into my comfortable rut, that is when everything seems to change. First major change: the guy that I am 'hanging with' that is interested in me, got a job in my future town of residency. So aka I am stuck in the small town and he is 2 1/2 hours south of me. [Long distance relationships don't work :(] The next huge change: I got a new job too. It pays twice what my current one does. So as much as I don't want to leave my perfect little rut and my minimum wage job, I have to. So now my world is lost, spinning out of control. Now I will have a new job and no social life. I am dreading it. I am so sick of last.... last day of work, last day to hang out with you. For lack of a better word, its super lame. Obviously, this is all happening to me so that I will be better at adapting to change. HELP!!!