The Four Letter Word

Yesterday was a definite mile marker in my life.... I have officially graduated from high school. Honestly, it is the strangest feeling I have ever felt. I feel like I am in Dr. Seuss' book 'Oh the Places You'll Go'. It reads, "for people waiting. Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go, or the mail to come, or the rain to go, or for the phone to ring, or waiting around for your hair to grow... Everyone is just waiting...." That is my exact feeling right now. I am not officially in college but I am not really in high school either. So really I am in limbo... or I guess you could call it a transition period in my life. I have always been one to dig a nice rut. I love my little rut... But sometimes life jerks me out of my comfort zone and makes me start digging a new rut all over again. I guess that is what life is. A constant digging, of ruts that are old and some that are new. I have cried more this week than I think I have in a very long time. The four letter word 'last' has become a poisonous by word in my home. But I guess that with the four letter word, comes a newer version five letter version called 'first'. So I guess this is where my true journey begins in the real world. The next few years will define me because I get to choose. So wish me luck in the big bad world...